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May 19, 2011

On the eve of graduation festivities:

Woah baby.
I thought this week would probably be a breeze.  I've been out and about in the world for 5 months now, I have a little piece of paper that says I have a Bachelor's degree, I have a job, heck, I'm even starting grad school on Monday.  This week was supposed to be a vacation, a time to reconnect with some friends, maybe lay on the beach, eat everything that I love and can only get on the North Shore...
But here I sit (at Starbucks, again.) and as I'm reflecting on the conversations I've had this week, I'm flooded with a mix of emotions.  Really, its not fair.  I already did 10 separate blog posts about this place back in December.  I already went through the month or two (or five) of feeling brokenhearted and hopeful, lost and at home.  I already navigated the waters of learning to identify myself as something other than student.  This was just supposed to be the celebratory part!  
But now, I'm watching dear friends get ready to make the transition into the "real world" and its just fully beginning to hit:  its over.  This season of life where I've changed and grown and learned and loved and cried.  This chapter is ending.  I know I said in my last post that I'm ready to start the next one.  I stand by that...I'm ready to move forward and see what's on the next page.  But I can't lie, I really wish the same characters could be in the next chapter.  I think somewhere in the back of my mind and the depths of my heart, I've always just thought I'd come back to Gordon and life would go on the way it has for the past four years.  (I know, I know, how dense am I?  The reality should have been pretty obvious)
And here's where this post gets to be like a Shakespearean sonnet, with a twist at the end:  I'm so excited that life isn't continuing on as it has, because I can't wait to watch these friends get out there and do something with what they've learned. I can't wait for us to watch each other change the world and be able to say, "hey!  i know them!"
So, thank you, Jesus, for blessing me with the opportunity to spend a season of my life in this place.  I couldn't have asked for or imagined a better place to spend the last four years.
And finally, world, life, and adulthood:  bring it on.


(And just another shout-out to Jesus...thanks for putting people in my life that remind my that I'm only 21 and I have a lifetime ahead of me.  Thanks for the friends that help me keep things in perspective, not take myself too seriously, and remind me to just have fun.  They are medicine for my heart.)

2 comments:

  1. Dad and I love you and are very proud of you....

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  2. i've been out of college since 2006 (gordon! '06!) and there are still days where i wish i could 'ungraduate' and go back and do it all over again. :)

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