it's the end of summer, and there are tons of kids getting ready to head off (or head back) to college. aj's getting ready to head into his senior year at berklee in boston, and i'm so ready and excited for him to finish school!
but all of this college talk has me thinking about what i wish i had known as a freshman. i chose to go to a school 6 hours away in massachusetts, and while i loved my school, i was a wreck my first year. i was so homesick; i went from graduating second in my class in high school to a 3.14 gpa my first semester of college; the planner in me was in a panic when i couldn't decide on a major.
this was my 18th bday....surrounded by my floor mates
you might get a c...or even a d (gasp!)....and it isn't the end of the world. learn from it, grow from it. one not-so-awesome test isn't going to sink your entire college career. and besides, that's what grading curves are for!
you might change your mind....and that's ok. discover what you really love, not what you love the idea of.
you're exactly where you're supposed to be. sophomore year, you're going to freak out about your future. but just hang tight....the next two years are going to be even better than you ever imagined.
someday, you're going to miss living in massachusetts. yes, even though it's six hours from home. and yes, even though there's a solid foot of snow on the ground at all times from december to february. and yes, even though it rains all spring. and yes, even though the salt air is going to allow rust to set in on your new bike. you're going to miss living five minutes from the beach and twenty-five minutes from boston.
take this time to learn to lead and learn to press further into jesus. know that even when you can't see three steps in front of you, he can see the whole journey.
at some point along the way, you're going to give some things up and start some new things. you're going to stop playing field hockey. you're going to discover photography. you're going to start blogging! just own it all. it's all good.
junior year, you're going to live in a house with a bunch of wonderful people. cherish this year. you'll also attend most of their weddings after college, and each one will be a wonderful reunion. they'll be some of your best lifelong friends.
no matter how hard it seems at times, no matter how bad you feel like you're doing, trust me, you'll get through this in splendid fashion. and it really will be some of the best years of your life.
and here's just a little peek into your future:
with some of my closest friends at our senior formal
the girls from my apartment my senior year
oh, and even three years after you've graduated, life is still going to look so different than you planned. here's the thing though, you need to learn to stop the planning. or don't, i guess, but at least just hold those plans loosely. because life is a crazy, wild ride, and you're never going to be able to know or predict or feel completely sure of what's around the next bend. and that's the joy and wonder of it all, but seeing it that way is a choice. it doesn't come naturally.
i'm excited for your (our) future. even now, i don't know what all it holds, but i'm excited.